well my site has been dead for quite a long time.... i dont update my multiply as well... i guess i just dont have the time...i promise soon though to update everything again especially since I have WIFI!!!! YEHeY!
So what have i been up to now?
- i dont really get to hang out both my 3 groups of friends, my high school kada, my blockmates and yeni and the bboys... its only a few i still keep in contact with or have time... I actually miss calling people at home...now its just study study study...i know what yeni feels...at least she can go out and party...but me it was always rehearsal, show and school... god! i just want to go out loosen up and drink! just when i thought i could cause HSM is done i can't...cause unexpectedly school just really piled up...wrose on Filipino! my worst subject so hopefully that goes away... surprisingly my grades are better than last sem and i have less time for school which makes no sense! but im so close to DL and with sort of the internal pressure from family i really hope i can make it! im so worried though i wont be able to either raise or maintain my grades hopefully that works out... SCREW FILIPINO! i really hate it and all of the paperworks
-i really miss my hs friends....the only people i really get to talk to now is anela...dont know why...but ever since everyone started going to katipunan i got really tamad so id hang in the blue rep room...one place i thought i wouldnt be going to and hanging out for many reasons.
-holly and ko, im still lucky i get to hang out with them a lot cause most of our breaks are the same and we have math together....but thanks talaga....ive been pretty depressed the past two weeks and youve been witnesses to me breaking down and crying from time to time.....to holly im glad i found someone who can understand what im going through..together we can get through it! and yes, i dont know how im able to do it and be civilized to that person
-to two of my last remaining really close guys friends...god its great to know i can always talk to them about anything and they will really listen and give up their time no matter how busy they are....i guess it really sucks cause they agree and its true guys can be assholes i didnt realize how one of my good friends would have turned out like that...it sucks he was the one i trusted the most and last night you officialy just made it worse to the point i just dont want to hang out with you....you jsut took advantage and dtiched me! ASS!!! argh....
-HSM is done...as much as tiring as it is and i want it done..i miss it. i miss singing and dancing...and more importantly the excuse to hang out with friends.... performing live really makes up for the sweat and pain you go through jsut to be able to perform
-CADS....im so glad im danced and we won..but the 2nd dance, it wasnt as great but that evening something happened which made the night a bit better...it made me think about things...i really had so much fun doing the dance competition
-as for that one person, i dont know if it was better for me to know the truth the side of your story... it should make me feel better to know i wasnt a pawn but it hurts cause you wonder what happened....cause i do? and to hear your side that i was my fault..it sucks even more cause i dont know what i did and i realized the feelings that i really had for you were quite strong...and it really surprised me how im still affected by now..i guess it shows im just not over it when i thought i was...althought i did love tghe conversation we jsut had....it made me wonder if that was what i was missing...although i cant do anything now and i dont want anything bad to happen to that person but deep deep deep down inside i still hope that something might happen in th future...its great to know that someone else thought the same....
- to another person...lets just saw i wont assume and ill be my usual normal self and be friendly
thats it....bye!
Currently listening to: what a difference a day makes
Currently feeling: okay
